I feel like my world has stopped, I feel like I have no where to turn, no goals to reach, no reason to keep trying, I even feel as if God is punishing me for something I have done..why..lets go back a week.
I was at the Chilli Cook Off in DC. It was my first time and I was with my daughter, enjoying good friends, great music, food and of coarse , a few brew dogs. Why not I work hard : ) I love music but I should have stayed out of the crowd. What was I thinking getting that close to a mosh pit! Oh well, Im with my daughter, enjoying Stone Temple Pilots when out of no where I was hit by a body. Yeah, a human body can out of no where( from behind) and landed on me. I left like a soda can that was justed stomped on. I crumpled unneath this massive 200lbs woman, she of coarse was fine-if I was that drunk I would be too- but I wasn’t. While on the groud I felt my knee-cap dislocate. I screamed as loud as I could for help,then I blacked out from the pain and woke up to strangers and friends pulling me out of a see of people-had finger tip bruises on my arms to prove it. The first thing that I thought of was how am I can I do my Crossfit!! What am I going to do! This is my life, my food, my drug, my reason to push forward….how can this happen to me now. Why take this away..work has been suffering with the economy, my “husband “has a social life that puts most 20 yr olds to shame, my teenage girls are a daily task. Now this. Come freakin’ on.
So the dislocation was the injury, I can’t walk, feed my dogs, water my flowers, do laundry, shower, drive or Do Crossfit. My first reaction was devistation. Crossfit has made me into a stronge woman, inside and out. I can do things I never thought I could do but now I can’t even pick up my cat. Oye
Now week one is over with. The swelling has gone down, the brusing is surfacing but so is the pain. Ive been told to rest ,ice and elevate. So I do it. Man, daytime TV is horrible! I sit on my couch day after day or I go onto the usual sites, Crossfit-Crossfit Football-SMCrossfit and miss it all. Will I get back to where I was? Will it happen again? Should I continue doing this? Most of these questions can bring me to tears and do.
Hmm, but Im Irish and Mexican…and hell no I won’t stop! So here it goes….week one, check! I couldn’t have done it with out my daughters, friends and Crossfit Click. We are such a tight- nit group. Only you would understand and you do.
So what’s ahead for the next coming weeks. Walking for one, walking without crutches! I don’t feel that injuries should stop anyone from doing what they want to do. I hear so many excuses from people that have aches and pains. Please! Im here to put all those people in their place. Im here to let “those” people know if you want it then do it…just like the nike commercial!lol But seriously. Lets see how long this will take me. Its going to hurt , I might swear sometimes but Ill be back!
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